Die Geschichte veröffentlichen wir in der englischen Originalfassung.
Having recently moved to Budapest for the purpose of my studies I was faced with the process of evaluating my personal belongings for the first time from the perspective of migration. I am only doing my Bachelor studies, but a vague plan for the future is to either stay in Budapest or keep migrating away from my home town of Belgrade if the opportunities allow. Being a young white European woman from an upper middle class (for Serbia’s standards) on a scholarship in one of the EU capital cities my position in the society could only be better if I was a bit more rich and a man, and in the light of that my choice of important belongings came down to emotional attachments, because all my other needs have been settled, or in case they couldn’t be in one trip, I knew that I could always rely on my parents driving here to bring me a forgotten object , in the case of me not being able to bring it myself.
The object I chose to bring no matter what is a little dark green notebook.
I got as a gift from my boyfriend whom I have had to leave behind in Belgrade. My reasons for moving play an important role in the choice of this object. The reasons were dual, from the perspective of my educational development I could not have made a better choice (because there is none for non EU citizens and full scholarships), but what could actually be more important is my independence. I grew up in a patriarchal family in a patriarchal society that was systematically undermining my personal development and independence in a way I could not affect but only escape (to a certain extent). This move was me breaking free. Because of that I didn’t feel like I wanted or needed any of my memory boxes that I’ve filled over the years, I wanted a clean slate. So I brought an empty little notebook given to me with love (because of my mild obsession with pretty stationary but also small things) that is now filled with experiences of a life in a new city and developing feelings of stability, calmness and autonomy.
Looking at it from the point of migration it could be said that it represents my privilege to be able to be optimistic about all the doors that are to be found and opened the future. (N.Đ.)